Nope, you haven't already seen her.. that I know of. haha
vonVeezelsnider:
I'll agree that girls make no sense, and your buddy's story is nuts. I couldn't stay a month with a girl like that, let alone eleven. But I am a kind of different person I guess. I won't honestly date a girl unless I know that I absolutely can't find any flaws in that girl or myself at that time. There have been a few girls in the last 6 months or so that I could've seen myself dating, but every time I thought of getting closer to these girls, I couldn't think of anything but Brianna, so I couldn't commit myself to someone else knowing that's not the person I'd be thinking of all the time.
Brianna hasn't really "toyed" with me at all though AFAIK. We started out as friends and I quickly developed a like for her.. that's about when I made a go for it the first time two years ago at Valentine's. She appreciated my motive, but I could tell she wasn't into me the same way that I was into her, so I chilled it out and we remained friends. Well, time had passed and about 3-4 months ago I decided to give it another try. After a week or two of dating, she kind of politely let me know that she didn't think of us as anymore than friends and asked if that was okay, and I agreed that it was fine, but on the inside it wasn't. I tried to push those feelings back as deep as I could and, since, she's invited me to dinner with just her (basically a date), and she'll write me all the time and we'll talk. She tells me all the time that we need to hang out more, too.
However, it wasn't until last night that she was sending all these "I like you" signals and I was going crazy. I was talking to my best friend at the same time saying, "You know.. I know she knows I like her, but she keeps doing this. I'm going to have to say something before I let my emotions get the best of me." He agreed and I ended up talking to her about it. I reminded her that I liked her and have gave a very honest try to push those feelings back, but the things she's been saying are really getting to me and I can't let that happen if I know she doesn't feel the same way. She replied with something along the lines of, "Honestly, I started feeling something I used to feel with you in the past while we've been talking lately, too, and I think that we should at least try dating again."
She went into detail that she's the type of person who will get a little bit into something and push out because she's scared of commitment or something. She knows her fault, and that's huge to me; that means she understands. Maybe she does want to give it an honest try. And she told me that the last time she did try, her boyfriend was a real douche and hurt her, and she isn't really ready for a full relationship yet, but is definitely ready to date. So, I'll go with the flow and see where this takes me...