Last night I had a dream that was weird to me...
Very early in high school I had a girlfriend, but I wasn't a good boyfriend. I didn't know what it was to be a boyfriend, and I didn't hang out with her or call her at all. It was an in-school relationship and I was stupid for not actually trying to broaden the relationship past that. Well, it seemed that this girl's best friend (let's call her best friend Tina for the sake of the story) couldn't stand me after that. I had never done anything to Tina, but it seemed that she didn't like me because I didn't know how to be a boyfriend. Well, meanwhile, I was being compared to Tina's boyfriend, who she had been going out with for like a year (I don't know.. maybe longer, maybe shorter). Well, I obviously didn't understand what being a boyfriend was, so it was an unfair comparison.
But it's not that Tina was a bad girl. Being her best friend, she was just like my (ex-)girlfriend. Well, a few years later in my senior year, Tina and I started talking more because we shared a common class, AP Lit, which was more like a small, tight knit learning community than a class. She and I had many laughs, and by the end of the year I began to realize that I was really starting to like Tina. She is absolutely gorgeous, classy, very smart, fun, and she defines "my type of girl." Well, I saw Tina about midway through summer at her work, and I gave her a hug, talked to her for a minute or two, and left. I haven't seen her since. However, a few weeks ago she sent me a message online saying she visited our AP Lit teacher and they were talking about me, and the way she made it sound, she really enjoyed the conversation about me. So, she messaged me, and we decided that I'll come up to her school sometime on a weekend to visit. Well, another one of our friends asked to go, so we said it was fine. I think it's just great that I'll be able to see her again. I plan on visiting sometime in the spring.. I'll have to message her to update the situation.
Anyway, I'm getting off topic. I haven't talked to her in a few weeks and there's definitely nothing serious going on between she and I. However, last night I had a dream and she was in it. I guess we were dating, and for some reason in the car with my mom driving. But it was just a great feeling throughout that entire dream. Everything seemed right and it was like we fit each other like a glove. We just laughed and talked through the whole dream and my mom playfully made fun of me.. very typical. You know how you can usually go back to a dream and think about it and realize there's something that was completely obscure? Well I can't find a damn glitch with that dream whatsoever. It's crazy. Anyway, I just woke up, and as I jumped in the shower (I was reviewing the dream from the time I got out of my bed), and I thought that I'll never be with a girl of that caliber, let alone her, and it just made me feel really sad for the moment.
Strange how dreams are sometimes, isn't it?