Marcia has never gotten over me cheating on her in 2002. It was a mistake,
we were not togeather in the official, formal sense but we were still living
togeather and it was a stupid mistake on my part.
In the past few weeks our relationship has come to a gridning halt. You
might say it smacked into an iceberg and we're sinking... Sofia of course is
the real victim & there's a lot of anger, hatred, mixed emotion & confusion
between us in this huge emotional divide.
Last night, I made what might become the most beautiful "mistakes" of my
life when I met up and went on a informal date with a girl I met through
the internet. There's so much more to this story right now but it comes
down to love at first sight. We didn't fu$% and we didn't even do anything
exciting except for driving around in her Explorer & talked. Call me
retarded for saying this but it was one of the best times I've had in years.
After that... early in the morning I drove home and the second I got home
at 3am I called her. We got off the phone at 9:00. No joke. I have no idea
what the hell I'm doing and on paper I'm acting like a fu*#ing lunatic but
I could care less. We decided to take things slow. We're not going to bring
intimacy into it until after I'm moved out since I've been sleeping on the
couch at the new house me & Marcia moved into.
I don't even know why I'm posting this and making myself look like a
complete tool on here but I thought that I'd share with those of you that
might care. I'm finally making positive strides in my life, first the new job
(which I start Sept. 11th ) now this. I have to keep it in my pants
with this girl. Her name is Beth BTW. She's gorgeous inside & out.
Okay... that's it, anyone have anythignn constructive to say I'd love to
hear it. Anyone ever been in a similar boat?